The Wall
I see what I want, but not how to get there.
Well, I’ve hit the wall- big time.
A weird calm swept over me for most of January. I felt optimistic, excited, even a bit relaxed.
That’s all over now.
It’s been just a rough sort of couple of weeks- a lethal combination of work stresses, crappy weather, and the ravages of time. I’m tired and stressed out. I’m fighting with Nick over very dumb things. Paper flowers. Greenery. Invitations. Why are we doing this again?
A courthouse wedding is sounding very good right now.
I wish more people would talk about the isolation of wedding planning. It can be lonely, throwing this big, dumb party for yourself. Obviously, lonely should not be taken to mean ALONE- with friends and family in my corner, I know that I have support. But, there’s just a lot. And not enough time. And not enough hands.
Today, I’m just not wanting to do any of it anymore.
This is basically my life right now:
Except mine is a metaphorical pit. Thank god- I have nowhere near the upper-body strength of Bruce Wayne.
Hey Kasia,
Jac here, I’m one of the fellow Lovette’s on Love my Dress and came to check out your blog, which can I say, may now be one of my all time favourites! I’ve been scrolling through your posts for nearly an hour now and just love your writing (and your sketches – oh my!). Anyway I know you posted this a while back but just wanted to say I feel your pain. I wrote a really similar post called hitting the wedding wall at the beginning of our plans and I think every bride goes through this but maybe even more so us creative types who are trying to do a lot of the work ourselves.
Making your creative vision match up to real life is no easy feat and I’m in awe of the amount of work you are doing for your wedding. I’m getting my dress made too and I designed my own ring, but if I could make wedding dresses or rings I’d most certainly be taking it all on as I’m such a perfectionist!
Can’t wait to read more from you on LMD.
Jac
http://bumpkinbetty.com
Thanks for reading, Jac! Your blog is SICK- so beautiful. I feel like a little baby neophyte in comparison- so your kind words are extra awesome.
Some people seem to float through wedding planning, so I’m happy to hear I’m not alone. As thrilling and happy as it can be… there are those days (or weeks. or months) where it’s a little… less so. All that money, all that time… your post completely hit it on the head. It should be a must-read for newly-minted fiancées! The tea lights for £20 a pop sounded especially familiar. 😉
By the way- your ring turned out beautifully; can’t wait to see the rest of your wedding!